Friday, March 3, 2017

2017 ~ Touching base!

Thank you for visiting today, I know my blog has been dormant, there has been much in my life that has kept me from being here and moving forward as I had hoped sooner. First the sudden loss of my mother Kathleen who was the driving force and co founder of T.E.A.M.Mom! in July 2013, I honestly did not know where to go after all that, I not only lost my mom, but my best friend, my confidant, my inspiration. It took me 2 years, sadly, to really be able to deal with it, in between we had lost several family members, again quite suddenly months a part.

As 2016 rolled about, I was facing the much dreaded decision of actually wanting to move forward with out her, since this was all her dream.... facing such uncertainty, again, we had a tragic, sudden loss of my brother in law; this rocked the very spirit in me. My sister had taken up (temporarily) the mantle of where my mother sat for T.E.A.M.Mom!, with his sudden death, it left her and my niece in such a horrendous state of doubt, fear, grieving, unimaginable to my family still to this day. I sat, wondered, thought, contemplated, prayed.

With the new year, I decided to just take a break and from Thanksgiving til New Years Day, T.E.A.M.Mom! was on hiatus, for how long I really did not know? As I did when I first put the whole concept into motion so many years ago with my mother, the idea of going to the next step in the journey seemed relentless, at times, suffocating, I just was not sure if I wanted to or could do it without my mom. As with every other year, as the clock came closer, inching second by second to the midnight rung, I closed my eyes, laid down, prayed and left it up to GOD.

There was a renewed, refreshed, revitalized spirit within my heart when I awoke; the sun was shinning brightly, the day seemed so alive, my sister was here with us, everything that I had fretted the nights before seemed to have slowly just withered into the air around me. As I work on changing and preparing the new direction for T.E.A.M.Mom!, I ask that you all keep me in your thoughts, prayers; try to hang on just a little longer - I realize how many times people say that, but I am real...I have stood by the T.E.A.M.Mom! name for over 11 years now and will not give up. Please don't on me.

I wish you all continued success in all your endeavors, never let go of the dreams you keep alive, always look ahead towards the road before you, no one can get to their destination if they do not begin the journey!!!

Patricia